I don't know about you

But I think the human brain is very mysterious. They say we only really know what 10 percent of it does. What about the other 90%?

Do you think that if we just knew how to use the rest of our brains that we could do things that seem impossible? Do you think, for instance, that some people have the ability to move things without touching them? Or what about people who can see into the future or have dreams that really come true? And if there are people who CAN do those things, why is it they THEY can and most people can't? Are they special for some reason?

And consider the possibility

that someday you try to tell people something that they laugh at you for saying. Try to imagine yourself in the position where you know that if you open your mouth and tell the truth people will think you are psycho or something. I'm not asking you to just blindly believe everything I say, but at least CONSIDER the possibility that I might be telling the truth. You can't honestly believe that everything in this world is just cut and dry with no gray area in between can you? I mean if you believe in God you should also just think about the possibility that there are other things that are here that can't be seen all the time.

Hayden

So someone just emailed me

And asked if I had seen THIS blog. Now I am wondering if I should stop writing. At first it seemed like a really good idea to at least write it out and let people read it because at least then someone else BESIDES me can hear this, but now I'm getting nervous that this was a really bad idea. What if someone finds out who I really am?

I'm sure people think this is all fake or something, I mean I WOULD think that too if I was reading it. IDK, maybe I should just call it quits. I'm actually quite surprised that people have left me comments, because I'm sure they are secretly laughing at me. I don't want it to get to the point that I accidentally leave my computer open and someone sees this, or God forbid, tells Lily about it.

How's that for paranoia Hayden? Pretty soon you are going to thinking there are army helicopters hovering over Burge or something.

When I first met Cass I

Realized one thing. He knew way more about me than he should have.

I have a lot to do tonight

I need to work on my paper that's due next week and I have a TON of laundry to do too.

I'm supposed to go back home this weekend but I don't know if I should. It's tempting, but I'm afraid I will just waste time instead of doing something productive.

The first thing

That I saw Lily do that was odd happened that night at study tables. I was just sitting there reading my notes from a lecture and I happened to see her send a text message to someone. No big deal. But when she got a message back from whoever she'd sent the first message to she just happened to lay it on the table with the message still open. It had a bible verse on it. So yeah maybe that's not really weird, but it was a strange verse. The only reason I saw it was becuase she left the table for a moment and her blackberry was still laying there. It was just enough at an angle because a notebook was underneath it. It said something about 'falling from heaven, star of the morning" or something like that.

I felt weird that I saw it at all. But later I looked it up because seriously how many people do you know who receive bible quotes as text messages??

So this is what I found when I googled those terms..

Isaiah 14:12
"How you have fallen from heaven, O star of the morning, son of the dawn!"

I had never actually heard that bible passage before..and I wasn't sure what it meant. Here is some info on it from a bible search engine thingy:

"The name Lucifer has often been understood to be another name for the devil or the satan. This identification has a long history in the church, going back to at least the fourth century. Its origin is actually from a passage in the Old Testament from the book of Isaiah that, to some, speaks of a being cast out of heaven because of pride."

So um, yeah weird right? I mean WTF?

Hayden

So I'm writing this

In the IMU. Probably dumb. It's not like anyone can see what I'm writing or anything, but still, in the back of my mind I keep thinking someone is going to read this over my shoulder or something.

I hate being so paranoid. This is not my personality. My friends would totally think I was NUTS. It makes me wonder how often strange things have happened to people I know and whether they've ever told anyone about it before.

I had a lecture this morning and all I could think about while I was sitting there was whether or not any of these people have a FREAKING CLUE about anything. Does it occur to them that when they are talking about meeting at whatever bar they've all decided on that there are people (or things) watching their every move? Have they ever noticed that there are certain groups of people on this campus that are just NOT normal?

I'm not talking about the crazies who hang out in the ped mall either.

Whatever,

I have to go.

Hayden